Life Process

The very first step is to be willing to be aware.

Next is to be willing to change or learn from it.

If you fail, you need extra willingness to try again.

If you succeed, you need to be willing to continue it.

If you master it, you need to be willing to pass on to others.

This is life's formula for whatever you we do. And guess what is common in every step? Yes, Willingness.

Right now, I find myself stuck at the 2nd-3rd step. In terms of various matters like, studies, relationships, personality, and even the issue on perfectionism.

And because of being trapped, constraint or stuck, it forms an inner struggle, and that is the seed of suffering, that vessels out pain to every cell of the body;
it generates the 'heat of sorrow' in your heart that gushes all the way up to your nose and then your eyes,
and out of nowhere you find the first drop of tears flowing out and heat gathering on the tip of the nose, and feeling the dryness in your mouth.
And after a while, you feels the stickiness on the skin and gave a sigh, feeling better, but the seed is still there...