Happy Lunar New Year

Haven't update for almost a month long! Happy lunar new year!

This year's lunar new year is special as the holiday is longer than usual. For the first four days, I went back to Mac and worked. Haven't stepped in there as a crew for half a year and I really missed working there. Waking up at 5.15am each morning, started work at 6am all the way till 2-3pm. Fortunately, its fun working in the kitchen, if not it'll be a drag to wake up.

This year's reunion dinner took a different turn; I did not had it with my parents. There's some mishaps going on here and there and who knows, I may end up homeless one day. I even slept early during new year's eve, unlike any other years whereby I'll watch Channel 8 new year's celebration and stay up to 'shou swaye'.

The atmosphere of the red festive wasn't there for me. Well, I wanted to take a trip down to Chinatown or Esplanade's River Hong Bao, but was very busy and too tired and not bothered to ask my friends to go with me.

Last tuesday, I went for an interview at the MOE headquarters for my Home-Econs Teacher Scheme application. Well, I kinda have a bad feeling regarding this 20min interview. No matter what, it's over and I've done my best for it. So whether I get in or not, I'll accept.

This issue about changing course, has also shine the light at a different angle on me. My feeling is like, 'sad to leave, yet sad to stay'. It's something like a Catch-22 situation, or simply a lose-lose situation. It has already been a well-established information in my course about my departure. Because I begun telling everyone that I want to quit ever since I had tha idea since last August during my holidays. I was very driven to quit then, all the way until November. It's only during the month of December onwards that I put quitting matters to domain and study for my current course.

Back then, my poor results, lack of friendships, lack of interests, too many commitments, immaturity, builds up the hype that makes me wants to leave. but right now, my results are improving, have more friendships, interest in the subjects grows, less CCAs commitments and becoming more mature, and therefore the need to leave actually dimmed. The pushing factor may have decrease but the pulling factor has still remained the same, which is $$$ and career.

As mentioned, I'm in a dilemma, or lose-lose situation. In which I'm sad in either both path, unlike back then when I become happy when I can transfer to another course. Surprisingly, the factors are actually the same as the above! Ones which makes me want to stay! It's as if I've established an equilibrium between the direction to stay and to leave.

Exam starts next Friday. I have to study hard. Anyway, surprisingly I begin to like my mathematics subject, especially statistics. All thanks to my friend who tutored me for it and the statistics book he lend me, which arouse my interest in statistics. Well, when I was introduced by my lecturer to statistics, I was greatly fascinated by the creation of this particular branch of mathematics and how intelligent we Man are to be able to formulate such methods and tables! It is just so interesting!

Right now, my favourite subject is Organic Chemistry because I love to draw mechanisms!